Fairytale Endings

I’ve always wanted to say ‘I miss you’ right in front of your face. But I won’t do that, as I know doing that is just like throwing salt into the sea, as it is stupid. I sort of convinced myself that I'm over you. The convincing worked for like awhile during the holidays, until I saw you at school. My heat literally skipped a beat when I saw you. Oh I know you saw me looking at you, but you acted cool and calm like I 'm invisible. Like I was not even there. Now knowing that I am now invisible to you, that feeling sucks. Whatever happened to ‘You’ll always be my girl’? Asdfghjkl. I really wanna move on, and leave you behind in my past. But what if, the past is what I want to be in my future? What if we were made for each other, but I totally screwed up? What if this feeling will never fade? Okay, enough with the What If’s. Anyway why oh why, you’re always in my dreams? Can’t I for once have a decent dream not including you? Can’t I for once wake up and not preventing the tears from rolling down? You are really irritating, you know that? I extremely dislike bumping you in school, seriously. Cause then I have to pretend that you are invisible or something. I hate doing so. Sigh. Maybe this is the reason why my heart is literally numb from any sort of romantic feelings, and I eventually stop liking boys.

Except for celebrities, of course.

My God. This reminds me, having feelings for you, is approximately the same as having feelings for a celebrity. They don’t even know I exist and I can only love that celebrity from far away. And that celebrity and I will never be together. I wish I can go back in time, and say a few things to my former self, like don’t let my ego stand in the way of me and you. I know you or anyone to be exact, won’t be reading any of this, so it’s kind of like a relief to spill the contents of my heart after keeping it all to myself. Gotta get ready for dinner, so goodbye. Loves.